It's that time already?

Where does the time go?

I've been trying to get back to writing and back to some kind of "normalness" in my life. I think there's a new normal, and I'm still trying to get comfortable with it.

Before I go much further, I should welcome my one reader - my son. I found out he's reading this. (He may be my only fan.)

Son, I just want you to know that I'll be posting my thoughts here from time to time, but don't get scared. I'm not one of those who posts their thoughts on Facebook, because I don't need to share the garbage in my mind with the world like some folks.

Why do I put it on the internet at all? Well, it's here for those who are interested. Those who want to make the extra effort of clicking a link to see what I think. This is also a place where I'm not going to spit out "bite-size" bits of pablum - although I may on occasion (SIDE NOTE: You may need to look up the word pablum). I'm just going to ruminate.

There are going to be times where I'm mad - maybe even super-pissed.

There will be times when I'm sad.

Hopefully, there are times when I'm happy and think funny things.

Who knows?

Bottom line though - my love for you, your sister, and mom is too big to be contained in the internet. I will do or say dumb things on occasion, but I will never do anything that would intentionally hurt any of you. If I ever express regret about anything in my life, just know that I'm exactly where I want and need to be in life and I wouldn't change anything (even if it sounds like I'd consider it).

Why am I saying all this? My head can be a pretty messy place - it's like an amusement park. There are lame rides for kiddies, fun rides that make you laugh, and scary rides that make you shit your pants. It's loud and full of people - some I'm happy to see, while others are just dumping litter all around.

I don't know if that's the normal way a brain works, or just the way mine works. Maybe yours works this way too (but for your sake, I hope not).

I just don't want you to worry about me from anything you read here. These are just thoughts, and they hold no power...unless you print them on hat and run for president. Then, run like hell!

Anyhow, I'm glad you're here for the ride. You are such a big part of me that it's hard to comprehend - until you have kids of your own. ;)

I love you. 

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